I went to my Alanon meeting last night and the topic was hope. Hope is a beautiful thing. I know there are days I don’t seem to have much hope and if I can find something that gives me that glimmer, that tiny bit of hope is all that I need to keep moving forward. Now hope is different than expectations. When you expect things to go your way or expect people to behave a certain way, that can lead to disappointment that can be avoided. Hope is, to me the belief that everything is working out the way that God intended. Everything is as is it should be.
Last weekend I got my hopes way up about attending a convention in Prescott. Beautiful weather, lots of healthy recovery and workshops, all my beloved friends that I miss so much. Plans fell through and I didn’t get to go and I was pretty disappointed. Then in a sudden turn of events my life changed tremendously and it all became different. Literally in the blink of an eye my life was different and my future was different. It is all good. I was not supposed to be at that convention. I was supposed to be home, to go through all the pain I suffered so that the outcome could unfold the way that it did. Life is funny that way.
I am really happy today. I went for a run and was thinking about today and how it is a great day for opportunity. I believe things are changing for the better and I have a lot of hope in this moment. Happy Wednesday, May 25, 2011. I Love My Life.