Monday, November 1, 2010

Thinking the Monday Before Elections (Not a Political Blog Just Stating a Fact)

This is a Havasu Sunrise. I have been known to rise early, before anyone else and capture the sunrise. I have been know to pray, long before the sun rises and watch the sun come up as I am praying. The mornings are my quiet time of day. I used to fill up up completely with working out , eating breakfast, hastily reading my Al-anon books and offering a rote prayer to God. Now it's more of a quiet companionship, just me and the energy.

I believe there is a great Spirit. I pray to Spirit. I believe in the power of the universe but I also believe in the power of prayer. I believe we all speak to the God of our understanding and that it is all the same power. We can make things happen if we all concentrate our energies on the same thing at the same time. I believe in Quantum Physics.

I turned in my Psychology paper tonight and we discussed Emotions and Feelings in class tonight. It was interesting to see how far I've come in that are. I've grown up a lot emotionally. I believe there are many ways to express yourself, but to attach feelings to everything I experience is to me childish and a learned behavior. I can let it go. I will always be a deeply feeling and caring person but I do believe there comes a time to "tone it down" as it where.

I think I'm growing up again. It's funny how that happens. You absolutely get many chances to change and become who you really want to be in your life. But I know life is short so I want to make all the changes fast. I sometimes feel like I could die young and want to make sure I do all I can in the years I have. You just never know. Life is weird like that.

Just like that I'm getting job offers left and right for small jobs that are flexible that I can fit right in with my school schedule. It's amazing how that works when you put energy out there.

Affirmation: My life is delightful. I am recieving money in expected and unexpected ways.

This is working. I am being a personal assistant, dog sitting and possibly bartending over the holidays and making enough money to pay my own personal bills and be fully self supporting. This is important to me because I have to carry my own weight. I don't like to be dependent on anyone financially. It's another issue with me.

I quit smoking June 15, 2010. It's been 4.5 months. I have gained 10 pounds but a whole new perspective on my life. It's been that life altering. It's an amazing thing and I feel very proud of myself.

Can't believe I wrote a blog entry. I haven't blogged regularly in a long time.

7 comments:

Fijufic said...

Welcome back and HOORAY on the smoking issue.

I am glad to read you once again.

Love,
Bobby

Moanerplicity said...

You were missed, my friend. Life is opening many doors in your direction & when growth is on the other side, it's a GOOD thing, for you, & for all of us.

Election Day turned out pretty much as many expected. *sigh* It will be interesting to see what, if anything, really changes (for the better).

Mad congrats on kickin' cigs outta your life. You give me hope!

Snatch JOY!

One.

L

silvertag said...

I've missed you!

SunTiger MOJO said...

This was a rather powerful entry. I really enjoyed reading and felt inspired by it. You're right. Life is a journey and the wisest among us choose to continually grow until we take our last breath. Sadly, some people choose not to evaluate their behavior and never seem to evolve. In my opinion those are the folks who aren't worth keeping close by. Beautiful affirmation and I'm proud of you too for sticking to your guns and leaving the cigarettes alone. It's good to be breath deeply and have fresh breath.

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