Friday, May 21, 2010


My son was arrested yesterday. He was not following the terms of his probation and has to serve 9 more days in Tent City in Phoenix. So I won't get to see him this visit.

It is a consequence of his actions. I understand this but as a Mother it breaks my heart and I want to DO something!! I feel completely helpless and it's hard for me to detach emotionally from this issue. I think I will still get to meet and spend time with his fiance anyway. It's so strange. I just don't understand why he can't just get into A.A. and get his crap together!!!!

On another note I will be spending tomorrow with all of my Alanon family. I will have some time with my sponsor which I'm really looking forward to. And I'm very grateful for all the support and the tools I have to deal with these kinds of issues.

I love my son. I can't let this ruin the visit with my daughter. She's really looking forward to hosting us at her place. I have to give up the worry and have a good time. I woke up with some really big stomach pains. I know it's nerves and anxiety. I pray they go away soon. I'll be picking up the rental car soon and we're heading out. I hate that I can't see my son.

Maybe on the next visit I'll be able to see him.


Dorrie said...

us mom's always worry about our kids, no matter how old they are. Sorry to hear about your son... I hope he learns his lesson this time. But don't let it spoil your trip (too much).... you've been so looking forward to it! {{{hugs}}}

Anonymous said...

You are very strong. But I can understand your feelings about this. Enjoy what time you have. Hope it's awesome!

TheLubeFaerie said...

I hope you enjoy your visit with your daughter :)

inneedofgrace said...

Keeping you and your son in my prayers - and sending big hugs.

becomingkate said...

I hope things are going good with him now. What a worry! I'm sending you goood vibes and *hugs*