Friday, May 21, 2010

Worry

My son was arrested yesterday. He was not following the terms of his probation and has to serve 9 more days in Tent City in Phoenix. So I won't get to see him this visit.

It is a consequence of his actions. I understand this but as a Mother it breaks my heart and I want to DO something!! I feel completely helpless and it's hard for me to detach emotionally from this issue. I think I will still get to meet and spend time with his fiance anyway. It's so strange. I just don't understand why he can't just get into A.A. and get his crap together!!!!

On another note I will be spending tomorrow with all of my Alanon family. I will have some time with my sponsor which I'm really looking forward to. And I'm very grateful for all the support and the tools I have to deal with these kinds of issues.

I love my son. I can't let this ruin the visit with my daughter. She's really looking forward to hosting us at her place. I have to give up the worry and have a good time. I woke up with some really big stomach pains. I know it's nerves and anxiety. I pray they go away soon. I'll be picking up the rental car soon and we're heading out. I hate that I can't see my son.

Maybe on the next visit I'll be able to see him.

5 comments:

Dorrie said...

us mom's always worry about our kids, no matter how old they are. Sorry to hear about your son... I hope he learns his lesson this time. But don't let it spoil your trip (too much).... you've been so looking forward to it! {{{hugs}}}

wildstorm said...

You are very strong. But I can understand your feelings about this. Enjoy what time you have. Hope it's awesome!

TheLubeFaerie said...

I hope you enjoy your visit with your daughter :)

inneedofgrace said...

Keeping you and your son in my prayers - and sending big hugs.

becomingkate said...

I hope things are going good with him now. What a worry! I'm sending you goood vibes and *hugs*