I have a bit of a sunburn. It was pretty warm today so I decided to test out the pool. Still too cold to swim but I got wet and abruptly hopped on the raft, all the while keeping my iPod out of the water. That takes talent! We put a gallon of tea out in the sun to make sun tea and the wind later blew it over, spilling it all over the deck. I had to laugh.
I feel like I live in paradise. To have the luxury of having no worries, money to pay the bills, more love in my life than I ever dreamed of, is a beautiful thing. I can't believe this is my life. I was saying that 6 months ago for entirely different reasons. Now I'm so grateful for boredom, for quiet, and for safety.
It is funny that my head will try to create it's own drama. I can find the silliest things to obsess over. Which is why it helps me to remember where I came from. What my life has been like for the past few years. It helps me to put it into perspective and remain grateful for the little things. It's ok to be bored. It's ok to have nothing at all to do. Life does not need to be full of anxiety. I wish my head didn't try to create it. Today I am peaceful. And really, that's all I have is today. I'm not guaranteed tomorrow. Nobody is. So I want to enjoy my boredom.