Thursday, March 5, 2009

Stoned

No, I'm not really stoned. But I do have a nice little endorphin rush that is filling me with peace. I really love my Tae Bo workouts. They make me feel yummy.

Yesterday was a little strained for me. I just have this nagging feeling inside that won't go away. I didn't even do any writing. The positive thing was that I went to my meeting and felt peace for the time that I was there.

I do have a lot to be grateful for and I want to focus more on that.

I'm grateful for

1. The beauty that surrounds me here in Havasu.
2. Having the lake so close to enjoy.
3. Finding my Higher Power again.
4. The ability to examine my own character defects and work on releasing them.
5. My sweet loving animals.
6. My new cell phone.
7. My health.
8. Endorphins!
9. Finding Alanon again.
10. Love in all forms.

I am at a loss for words. I feel depression sitting on my shoulder but I refuse to acknowledge it. I just sometimes feel that I make progress and then take two steps backward.

I am searching for the strength inside of me to keep moving forward and not stay in the steps backward that I seemed to take. I hope I can find it again.

12 comments:

Xanadu said...

You do have a great attitude, and seem positive, depite setbacks/problems in your life. Good girl! Hang in there. That's a great "grateful" list. Hugs.

becomingkate said...

I hope today is better for you! *hugs*

Fijufic said...

hang in there...

Soiled Dove said...

Feeling the depression sitting on your shoulder and refusing to ignore it... It works for me most of the time... I just have to stay busy.

Hoping it's a grand day for you ;)

Dorrie said...

there will always be a few down hills after the up hills.... you are on the right road! {hugs}

Maggsworld said...

You will have good days and bad days. Please accept them for that. Navigate by that inner yearning and compass that makes you write the gratitude lists. I believe I am going to do that myself to try and haul me up out of this nice hole I have myself in. You are doing well. It is not perfect - as none of us are, but you are doing well. Maggs

Maggsworld said...

You will have good days and bad days. Please accept them for that. Navigate by that inner yearning and compass that makes you write the gratitude lists. I believe I am going to do that myself to try and haul me up out of this nice hole I have myself in. You are doing well. It is not perfect - as none of us are, but you are doing well. Maggs

Doug said...

Hi, GE. You always know when you're veering from the path and you always get back on track. Keep up the great work, and have a great Friday!

fragilewisdom said...

:) I hope that today is better than yesterday.

Judy said...

I do my Tai-Chi...when I'm not too lazy, lol.

I hope your days will be much better!

((hugs))

ctmedz said...

wow~~this has certainly gave me inspiration~~~great words : ) You seem so much happier~~I love your positive thoughts~~Of course I had to stop by and say hello to all my faves~~Glad to see your doing well~~
Warm hugs to you and T
XX

SunTiger said...

Grrrrrr (I say, as I still have not worked out). Animals and beauty really do surround ourselves with love and a sense of being "stoned." I'm so glad Tae Bo does that for you too.