No, I'm not really stoned. But I do have a nice little endorphin rush that is filling me with peace. I really love my Tae Bo workouts. They make me feel yummy.
Yesterday was a little strained for me. I just have this nagging feeling inside that won't go away. I didn't even do any writing. The positive thing was that I went to my meeting and felt peace for the time that I was there.
I do have a lot to be grateful for and I want to focus more on that.
I'm grateful for
1. The beauty that surrounds me here in Havasu.
2. Having the lake so close to enjoy.
3. Finding my Higher Power again.
4. The ability to examine my own character defects and work on releasing them.
5. My sweet loving animals.
6. My new cell phone.
7. My health.
9. Finding Alanon again.
10. Love in all forms.
I am at a loss for words. I feel depression sitting on my shoulder but I refuse to acknowledge it. I just sometimes feel that I make progress and then take two steps backward.
I am searching for the strength inside of me to keep moving forward and not stay in the steps backward that I seemed to take. I hope I can find it again.