A week? Really???

I let a week pass me by and didn't write here. Wow. It's been awhile since that's happened I think. How's everything in your worlds?

Mine is freakin' fantastic. I feel amazing. Truly blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I am still busy with my life and it seems that spring is upon us here in Lake Havasu City. Yesterday we worked in the front yard. Well, actually Tee did most of the work because I was not as into it as she was but I did pull some weeds and talk to her.

I know it's dangerous to be so happy because she is sober but I am. I am so happy to have her back I can't even begin to express it. She is feeling good and that makes me feel really good. That said, I am very aware of this slippery slope and I'm building a strong foundation in Alanon for myself so that I can have something to fall back on if she relapses again. It's been two months and I really feel like she is back. It's a beautiful thing to have my best friend back in my life again. I feel like we were separated for so long. So that my friends is why I have been absent from the computer.

I went to an all day workshop on Saturday in Kingman, AZ and it was really a lot of fun. I made some new friends and they are wonderful. They did tell me it's time for me to get out and explore the town since I've been here 6 months. I realize this. I know we have become so safe in this little cocoon we have built and it's time to venture out. So I've been thinking of joining some kind of fitness club, like hiking or kayaking or something. Just thinking about it so far.

I've not lost any more weight but I'm holding steady which is just as good for me. I am still doing Tae Bo 6 days a week and strength training 3 days. My arms are getting so lean and strong and my legs and waist have shrunk considerably. I have also added some walking and light jogging to my routine. Xena is loving it. And the streets are so hilly here that it's a great workout for my hips and legs. I am getting sideaches though. I haven't run in a really long time. I want to start running again. Like real laps around the track.

I can't believe the role nutrition plays in our health. I have had the most horrendous eating habits for most of my life. This journey is an exciting one. Learning that I eat out of emotional distress. That "that time of the month" induces horrible cravings in me. That water is fantastic!!! That taking vitamins is really good for your nails and hair and bones. I really do feel better than I ever have. And I'm almost 42 years old. It's about time.

I haven't been taking many pictures. I need to get some more. We have more work to do on the back yard now. Lots of plants that need tending. All the rain brought many weeds that need pulled too. And the lemon tree should be producing fruit soon. All the birds around us are getting ready to have their babies. It's so fun to watch them.

One of Grandma's best friends came over yesterday to see us and it was good to see her. She loved all the changes Tee has made to the house. She was worried about us because she hasn't heard from us in so long. We made a vow to stay more in touch with her. Sweet lady.

We also are planning a boat trip across the river to have lunch and spend some time. This is a big outing for us. And a step in the right direction. No word on the job front for Tee but the mortgage is covered for March at least. We are taking it one day at a time and it will all work out. No sense in wasting energy on worry. Life is good. All is well.

I hope to be able to get around to all of your blogs soon. I think of you often and hope all is well in your worlds. Hope you have an amazing Wednesday. I am out the door to my Alanon meeting in about 20 minutes. Talk to you soon :)

Quiet Sunday Morning

I am enjoying the morning. It's quiet in here. No TV, the only sounds are my own. I like that. It's my time. I read my meditation book and it was on letting go. That's always been a hard one for me. Once I'm friends with someone I have a hard time letting go. Or else I just shut myself off completely. It's always one extreme or the other. I am trying to find a balance.

This picture is of my brother and I back in October. His 38th birthday is today!! It really makes me feel old now that my siblings are approaching 40. I am the oldest so you'd think I'd feel that way already but I haven't. I can't believe my little brother is getting up there with me! I am so proud of him. He teaches English at a high school in Phoenix. He has been sober for two years already!!! What an amazing gift recovery is.

You see all the fat around my middle in that picture? It's gone now. Almost completely. I was about 12 pounds heavier there. I seem to have gained just in my midsection this time around. Some in my arms and face too. Well, I am not sad to see that go. Actually this picture is what made me see how fat I was getting. I looked at it and said "That is not what I look like"!!! My brother goes "UH, yes that is you!" Thanks a lot little brother!! lol

It made me get off my butt and start doing something though. I can't let myself get in the danger zone. There is too much obesity in my family.. I have to start getting healthy now. So that's what I'm doing.

I did work out yesterday and it hurt like hell too! Today I am resting my muscles. I think we'll probably watch football. The Cardinals won last night! Woo Hoo! We kicked their butts 33 to 13. It was an amazing game. Go CARDINALS!!! Superbowl bound for sure :)

Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday...