Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Racing

Tomorrow is the 15th. It's the anniversary of several things, one of them being my quit smoking date. It's been 3 months since I quit for the second time. If I hadn't relapsed I would be celebrating one year but I relapsed so... Such is life. I am pretty proud of myself.

Tomorrow is the full moon and also a lunar eclipse. My horoscope said it would be all good and business related and it's the truth. I have two jobs and will be working hard by the weekend. I'm cleaning offices every night and that's not easy but it's not too difficult. It's physical work and I'm earning an honest paycheck. I like that.

My mind is racing today. You would think that all the money that will be coming in would ease my mind a little bit but the truth is that it's making me more aware of all the things we need to get done around here and all the things that we need to be saving money for. So the worries come in which is useless. This is old behavior, it used to be a daily ritual for me to worry about money. I am not going there again. I will find something else to occupy my mind. My life is so good right now, why mess that up with my anxieties?

I have my meeting tonight so I'm glad of that. I have things to do tomorrow and I need to prepare for that. I will focus on the things I can change and do something about. I love my life.

4 comments:

Fijufic said...

For a second lets change WHAT you worry about.

Can we worry about how much you are going to save (Even if it is 5% or something like that?)

Pay yourself first and then worry about the rest. Ah skip worrying about it. Worry doesn't care if you worry about it in the first place.

Stop worrying. I'm damn proud of you for bagging the cancer sticks.

Love,
Bobby

Country-Girl said...

I can't tell you how awesome it is to hear how positive you are! I love watching you grow with each passing day! You're such an inspiration in so many ways!!!

Eve said...

Way to go quitting smoking! So what if you relapsed..you got right back to quitting and not smoking is the best thing you can do for your health..
Everybody worries about something..the key is to not let worry take over your life..I struggle with that too in certain areas..congrats on all you've accomplished, that's awesome!

greeneyes67 said...

Thank you Eve. I'm so proud of myself about the smoking I just wish I hadn't gained so much weight.