Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Tuesday Rambling

I have to get moving this morning. I need to do my Taebo and go for a run. I've gained 20 pounds since I quit smoking, thankfully the muscle has been maintained underneath my fat and I figure I will be able to stop eating so many sweets again someday. I can't seem to stop right now but I'm being more gentle with myself. I quit smoking for Gods sake. Of course I've gained weight, my body is freaking out without the chemicals and drugs it had for 28 YEARS!! Anyway, I need to get that workout done.

But here I sit. I sold Grandma's old sewing machine to a really nice older couple that I met on Craigslist. They came and picked it up yesterday evening. I have had so much luck on Craigslist. I must say I kind of have a knack for listing items, then following through with the emails with people and setting up appointments. We have made quite a bit of money.

I am also going out to the place I sent my resume to and filling out an official application. I have my reference page ready to give to him and the rest is out of my hands. I would love to get this job and if it's meant to be it will happen. We shall see.

I had a disturbing dream about my Mom this morning. I was thinking about my kids last night when I went to sleep. They aren't currently speaking to me because of some bad decisions I made. Now I don't know how I raised such judgmental children but apparently I did and they won't give me a break. I'm not allowed to make choices unless they approve of them I guess. Anyway, I was thinking of them and how my sister didn't speak to my Mom for years and it just breaks my heart to think my daughter might do that to me. So I had a strange and unsettling dream of my Mother. I usually don't dream of her. Mostly I'm waiting for her to show up in my dreams. But she was there with her new husband and it was really weird. I think it's weird to dream of the dead anyway but this one had a weird undertone and my brother Ryan was in it too. Unsettling.

OK, time to get moving. Happy Tuesday.


Anonymous said...

With 5 daughters of my own, all grown ( or just about) their black and white judgement can be daunting and agonising at times. This is the time you just accept the fact you are human as they are...and just continue to set the good example by making the choices you can and living your life. They will, sooner or later, come around. It may take time. That is their journey. But in the mean time you have your friends - and you can count me in that number. )))hugs(((

greeneyes67 said...

Thank you Maggs, that means the world to me. I can't believe how they have turned on me. It's so hard. I try not to think too much about it, I'm sure they will come around but it bothers me.

Eve said...

It makes me sad when I hear of kids not speaking to their parents. I have three boys, all grown with their own kids. They have never stopped speaking to me, but they do seem to think that they have to approve my decisions..don't worry, they will come around, you have the right to make your own decisions, good or bad...you're a grown up...
Congrats on quitting smoking!!! That's awesome! I quit 7 years ago, after smoking for 17 years. I ended up gaining a lot of weight too, and 2 years ago I started a new lifestyle with the focus on healthy, clean eating and fitness..so far I've lost 60lbs and have about 20 more to go..being fit and healthy beats smoking any day! I admire anyone who quits cause I know how hard it is...sorry this is so long!
Continued luck with your Craigslist sales!

greeneyes67 said...

Thank you Eve. It's so hard losing this weight but I am very fit and there is lots of muscle under this fat. I can't stop eating. It's a problem and I'm sure I'll get to the root of it soon enough. Congrats to you too. 60 pounds is remarkable~ As far as the kids go, they'll come around. I just have some amends to make. I am working on some letters.